regarding my first love.

When you get right down to it, I friendzoned myself, and didn't know it.

last i posted, i wrote of the grief, the empty spot left from letting go of my first love. after letting things settle for what, a hundred days? i will relate what caused that feeling ( Read more... )

Grief can be loud, or quiet. Today, it's very quiet, but hurts just as much.

I've finally accepted the loss of my first love. 30 years on, that spot is now empty. And quiet. The silence of death.

I'm sure I'll write about the details, and consequences later, but for now, it's just an empty ache.

Yesterday the horoscope talked about letting go, and I didn't know what it was talking about.  Today, I think I just let go of a grief I have been carrying nearly 30 years, and the emotion chip has been going nuts ( Read more... )